What God Could Create?

from The Evasive Sentiment of Optimism by Freebased Propane

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Her father and mother divorced and fought over
a menagerie of subjects, but never got sober.
They argued as if the kids couldn’t see
that their dad has been drinking and mama gets beat.

Soon eight years of husbands, that's six different men
who had felt her with cold hands before she was ten.
Her brother had tried to defend her one night
and got sent off to prison for stabbing a guy.

Four more years, and the men just as mean.
Then her dad died from withdrawals when she was fourteen.
She missed him a lot, and did not understand
what God would include this on its list of plans.
She screamed at the sky until she couldn’t stand,

“What God could create such a God-awful plan?"

We’ll all be dust that blows away.
All will suffer in some way.
Bloated tears flow down our cheeks,
heralding in despair and the wreckage it leaves.

Her brother left prison late last October.
His cellmate sold drugs, so her brother’s not sober.
Mom had a stroke, they’re the last two alive,
then he blew off his head, left his sister behind.
What light she had left was removed from her eyes,
extinguished by trauma now internalized.
Now curled in a ball she wails at the sky,

"What did I do to God to deserve such a life?”

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from The Evasive Sentiment of Optimism, released November 18, 2023

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