Unsolicited Bursts of Blinding Rage

from The Evasive Sentiment of Optimism by Freebased Propane

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This is dedicated to Eric. I truly am sorry, and I'm making a greater effort to keep up with my mental health.

I hope you're well. Love you, buddy.

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I checked into the hospital.

I thought that it was logical at a time where I couldn't be, and I let anger get the best of me.
I guess I’m more aware this week... More in control, at least.
It feels like I can hardly breathe as I fall apart in fever dreams.

Such a nasty habit I obtained. I get it from my mother, I explain.
But I can’t take away these unsolicited bursts of blinding rage.
I thought that Id be cured around this age, but I am still the same.

It may take me months to do, but I will make it up to you.
Something in me bent out of shape and left me standing in its wake.
I lost track of mindfulness and it ended in violence.
Smoke consumes my fading silhouette, and it will dissipate when I am dead.

Ramshackle's out in the abyss; someday where I will come to live.
I'm weeping because I know I'll never see that once-familiar face outside of dreams.

My mind is too far past surrendering.

My body’s started giving out on me.

I thought I’d grown to process death,
but I know I’ll never grow to process this.

Such disgusting habits I obtained to escape or try ignoring all the pain,
But it never goes away.
Unsolicited bursts of blinding rage.
I thought that it’d be cured around this age, but it’s my fault I'm the same.

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from The Evasive Sentiment of Optimism, released November 18, 2023

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Freebased Propane is the collective groan of old bones getting out of bed in the morning. Still in the early stages, so content is going to vary slightly. We appreciate you choosing Propane.

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