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This song is dedicated to Ramshackle. Almost two years have passed and I still miss you greatly almost every single day. I only hope that you'd be proud of the progress that I've made.

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I remember the seizure;
clinging tightly to you as your rental truck rolled into the driveway where we’d sit as I demanded to drive until I got you home. 
That’s the trouble with secrets. That’s the trouble with loving somebody at all. 
Love can turn into weakness. Love can turn into loss that devours you whole. 

It sure feels like screaming at nothing.
Who could take comfort in that?
I’m sealed in a vat of my own discomfort,
and drowning just beats fighting back.
It’s colder now your flame died,
and I dream she did not follow suit.
You survive in the ache of my Ramshackle heart,
and I hope you continue to.

Should the afterlife be, then I just hope I can see you again sometime soon.
That’s just hoping, it seems. Man, that just feels like a blind optimist’s point of view. 

I’d give the world, and moreover each drop of my blood deep within  
if only to hear your unfettering laughter and to feel you here with me again.
So I waste less time when I scream to the sky, 
or for once just produce yells of glee.
Without the next moment to realize I’m dreaming,
and time’s returned nothing to me.
Now I sure feel like screaming at nothing. I can’t find comfort in that.
Decompose in my hope. That’s good for nothing.
I don’t have the will to fight back.
I haven’t heard from you since the last night;
I often dream that I stayed to hold you
in the pain and foundation of my weary heart.
This world isn’t home without you.
So every time I scream to the sky
I hear a voice screaming with me.
As I quiet down I cry and lament
every night you are absent from me.
Such pain I found stationed inside of my heart,
as time's returned nothing to me.

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from The Evasive Sentiment of Optimism, released November 18, 2023

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