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The Damn​-​Near End of Times​/​A Sad Sack

from The Evasive Sentiment of Optimism by Freebased Propane

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This is a combination of a newer song and a fairly old one that just fit the bill. I felt like they went together, and I prefer to make ten-song albums anyways.

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Retreat to my bedroom to sleep off the hurt of another day that my soul hits the dirt.
Leaving my bed feels way too much like work. To make like I’m leaving means that I’ll just return.

I’m happy to exist in these, the damn-near-end-of-times.
None of us will live, and to me that’s quite alright.
I don’t think there is a coming afterlife.
The thought just makes me wish I’d never had a mind.

I’m not inherently broken, I'm just lacking in self-worth
and I feel like I’m choking on the tears I’ve shed for her.
I have been sleeping on someone else’s terms,
and I have been dreaming so that’s cause for concern.

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I really feel like I've wasted all my time.
After all these years it appears my dad was right.
I'm always shit-faced, and I'm always out of line.
I'm worn out and insecure, so I lay on the couch crying.

I feel insane. I'll blow my brains out on the wall.
This innate sense of worthlessness I feel has worn on.

I've played until my fingers bled, and nobody stopped to look.
How could I complain? This is the road I took.
I wanna feel like these efforts mean a thing
to a goldfish, or a cat, or anyone but me.

This guitar won't take me far, and I ain't shit.
A sad sack is sitting back, and you're at the bar not looking in.

All these excuses, when I know it's all my fault.
I carelessly ran for anything and ran face-first into a wall.
I wanna feel like I'm worth this gasp of air
before I scream out into it while I'm tearing out my hair.

I feel insane. I'll blow my brains out on the wall.
This innate sense of worthlessness I feel has worn on
This guitar won't take me far, and I ain't shit.
A sad sack is sitting back, and you're at the bar not looking in.

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from The Evasive Sentiment of Optimism, released November 18, 2023

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